watch me watching you.

This is a black market reformation.

2009-01-25T21:16:00.000-08:00

Yes i'm back. I know it's the umpteen time i've said this, but i promise to keep this as updated as possible. lol

Well it's chinese new year season. boring stuff i would say. i mean dinners and reunion stuff and all are fine. but it's just something I'd love to miss out. Not that i'm anti-social or what, but it's just something i can't explain.

I've realised that of date, i've become more independent. or rather, i love to be on my own. i guess it's a good and a bad thing? haha. i've been labelled 'emo' and i dont think that's great. but i get some quiet when i'm alone. so i guess it's a balance aye.

and strangly my blog looks weird. but who cares. maybe i do. but yeah, anything goes.

oh and if i start blogging like this everytime. lol. i'd puke but i guess you'd be happy.

and i feel like dying cause i don't know what to do.pfft.don't ask me about it.

There Can Be Miracles.

2008-09-02T21:37:00.000-07:00

THERE CAN BE MIRACLES. I have decided to finally update my blog.

There's been people sniping me to update. And i guess i should. Long long long long time since i've last posted and i'm not gonna slaughter you all with my expositional essays. Rather i'll update you all about my life. ha, here goes.

firstly i'm in FSV,Film Sound and Video at Ngee Ann. awesome course, class, school. Everything about it just vibes "phua" and it's what i enjoy doing. Despite the lack of exams but mega major projects, it's something i'm very grateful for. And if you were wondering, i really am enjoying the course. Can't wait for more torture, in a good way!

secondly. Lomo has become a part of my life. haha. Not the marketing schemes or the supposed dopeness. But the actual release of artistic prowess and emotional expressions. I lomo for love, not for hype. You guys can check my flickr pages up, www.flickr.com/photos/calvinphua and www.flickr.com/photos/calvin-phua. And, it's not some fad. I'm sticking with it. Here one photo to entice you to my flickr page.

And for those who love it. Flickr Flickr. haha.

Thirdly, i've been thinking about it and i've decided to get a new electric guitar. most probably a CIJ(Crafted In Japan) Fender Stratocaster[ for those who know nuts about guitars, google it.]. So yeah, i'll get all prepared for electric guitaring, Blues is my thing. Acoustic Guitar is how i was brought up, but electric guitar is my maturity. lol to that line.

Tweedly speaking, i've never blogged like this since, i was like 14. I feel so different as a 17 year old fella. Strangly people, i am not 25-30. Dont base things on my previous posts. I just, read more than a usual 17 year old.

I can't get anymore updates into my mind. But i will update. Soon. i promise it wont be like a 6 month gap again. i'll try.

Till then, Ciaoz!

Signing off,Yes, that's how i look now, if you havent seen me in a long time. HAHA. ok, ciaoz,love!

Guess who's back?

2008-02-29T13:40:00.001-08:00

You're probably right, you've guessed it, PHUA is back.
Yes yes, the man is in the house.

This time, the topic's gonna be on product placement and branding.

I've really got to start the ball by mentioning the Apple IPod. C'mon, you know it, i know it. It's a piece of ingenuity and the pioneer in the art of portable music players. But how did it get this way? Was it based on the sole desire of the vast majority of people to get something that is innovative and creative? I beg to differ. The selling point of the IPod is how it is actually sold into homes and the hands of buyers by the simple approach of the media and of course the awe of Steve Jobs.

Not putting Jobs or Macintosh down. I really admire the way they sell their products to thousands upon thousands of people that believe that Apple, or Macintosh, has the best selling equipment. However, there are several controversies that the IPod is not the ultimate portable music device.

Going back to the 2001 Macintosh Conference,birth place of the first ever IPod. It had a 5.5 hour life span, could hold a thousand songs and could only be charged by Firewire, an Apple invention. The speech was a success not because Jobs held up the perfect portable media player. It was simply in the way he built up the IPod and placed it in a place so far off from the other alternatives that they could barely smell the IPod smoke. The IPod was not only a music player. It was meant to be a profit earner. You're going to say, how can a company not want to make profit. Precisely! Apple has made millions upon millions thanks to their beloved IPod.

How did Macintosh go that far with the IPod? It all was held up on two simple facts. Product awareness and product placement. Making sure that everyone knew what an IPod is was the most important part of the Apple invasion. They had adverts, reviews online and in magazines,some of which are now legendary, for example the hit with the U2 track, "Vertigo". I'm sure that if you mention that song to someone who doesn't listen to U2, the person is going to go, "oh, that IPod advertisement!". It's so true that how much a company spends is how much they are going to get their products sold. Look at Macdonalds for another example. Billions, mind you, BILLIONS are spent on their advertising campaigns. They have TV shows, partys in the restaurant and so many gimmicks. A waste of money? NO. By judging at the amount of profit and revenue they make annually, i'm sad to say that Macdonalds is making the big bucks.

Back to Macintosh now. Have you realised that almost any music player or earphones in any of the movies, commercials, tv series etc. are all IPods? You've never seen a Hollywood film with Creative players being thrown around, or ran with a couple of superstars? It's always the Apple IPod. This is called product placement. If Apple is able to make sure that every single superstar carries an IPod with them, they can be certain that the IPods will sell like pancakes.No doubt that the public will view the IPod as luxury items, as items that stars will carry. This common desire, the deep yearning to be like a superstar or at least of superstar status draws them out to buy an IPod.This is the way companies work the public to get their products. Place high value on their products, yet sell it for a cheaper price because that selling price is leaps and bounds over the cost price, ever since IPods were Made In China.

The trap of commercialism is very very dangerous. IPods are just IPods. It's a matter of personal opinion and personal preference. No way can Apple shove an IPod into your pockets. They would not want to harm consumer rights and their opposition's rights. Fighting a law suit is much worse than persuading the general mass public to buy your products.

Definitely a thought worth thinking when you are shopping next time.
Phua.

Grand Entry.

2008-02-29T13:24:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday to me.

This was not only a year where i turn 17, but a year that i realised that God's love is not only through the usual. But also through the people that He has placed in my life. A big shoutout to all who wrote in the card, paid for my gifts, drew up their own cards, wrote postcards, sent MSN messages and etc! LOVELY stuff. (Do check the custom C.J.P. on the guitar case!it's one of the gifts, mind you, one of the big ones!)

Love,
Phua.

Freedom Song

2007-11-02T09:15:00.000-07:00

What is freedom?

Freedom is a many faced figure to many people of different aspects of life.

To a man on the street, freedom is the right to have a house deed in his name.

To the crminal, freedom is getting out of his jail cell.

To an O' level student, freedom is completing his or her papers as soon as possible.

Freedom is an opinionated view, usually biased towards the party involved. Freedom usually occurs in the head first, as a thought, a thought where the best situation happens to the person. The person believes that he has freedom by doing this act. This belief will then trigger an action, one where the person believes will grant him his so desired freedom.

But what is freedom really all about? To me, it is the true liberation of fears, which will lead to the releasing of potential in anyone or anything. If a person has "freedom", it doesn't mean that that person can do anything he or she wants/likes. That person has freedom when his or her fears are lifted away. The potential that is inside everybody is the main source of that fear. We are fearful only of ourselves. So fearful that we do not do things that ought to be done. We also create a boundary and limit ourselves to the amount of work we can do. This is surprising true when it comes to sports.

Have you ever worked out in a gym alone, by yourself? You'll usually find the session unfullfilling and will go home, begging for more of a kick out of the two hours wasted. If you take a closer look at it..when we're alone and by ourselves, we set a limit on ourselves. We need a constant push, in the form of a personal trainer or your closest friends. No matter what, to achieve a perserverance of high quality, we humans must be encouraged.

Also, have you ever told yourself that you'll lose this amount of weight in this designated timeframe? This kind of plans will not usually come to pass until you, yourself,will sacrifise your lifestyle and eating habits. Experts would be that pushing force in this equation.

As i pen down these examples, i have a vague idea of what you think freedom is. It is truly the sensibility, knowledge and total faith in yourself, the desire to prove that you are either right or should be listened to. In all, freedom is a choice you must make. No one stands on earth today without a choice made on them.

No matter how far you go in life, freedom will be a big issue. Freedom from the work crisis, freedom from the liberation of conforming to the normal. Freedom is not as easily gained as it is thought of. You have to know what to do in order to gain freedom.

Freedom is part of a prompt testing of God, or any other higher force you believe in. Freedom, or the desire to be free is planted into every single thing that is living. Your willingness to fight for that freedom is the test score of the test. The
more willing, the higher the test score.

If you are looking for freedom, first thing you should do is not to be normal. I'm not telling you to do stupid things, but i am illustrating the fact that only unique people change the world. What good would a person be if everyone was exactly like him?Would it be logical that someone can change the world just by being normal and average?

Freedom comes from being the odd one out. You can't maintain your pride while seeking freedom. No man has ever been proud to say, "I am free", unless he has worked hard for it, so much so that he had to humble himself in front of others.

Liberation is a step towards freedom. If you learn how to get yourself liberated from your situations, problems and every fear, you'll be a free man. You'll be so filled with freedom that you don't want it anymore.

Therefore, no matter what happens, i choose freedom. Why be stuck in the normal, boring and mundane society that we live in now? Freedom should be sought and it will be, as soon as you have the desire to be liberated.

Freedom is in your hands.
Phua.

Self Help.

2007-10-28T00:08:00.000-07:00

All throughout my 16 years on earth, i've realised that we people are a common bunch. We always want what we can't have, don't you agree? I hate to list examples but everytime you see the newest game in stores, don't you jump for joy and scream for your parents, begging them for every single penny they have worked hard for, just for your pleasure? what's worse is that you chuck the game away in some cupboard, leaving it for the moth and dust.

What's real funny to me is that we take pride in everything we have, say for example I have my guitar. I really do enjoy playing the guitar and all, but don't you realise something? Let me tell you a secret.Since i've learnt the guitar, at least 10 people have sprouted out, expressing an interest to learn the guitar. I've always given this face, =). I'm telling you now, i'm glad for my own influence, but it's getting out of hand! But i blame no one, it's a normal, human tendency. I've already explained it in the above paragraph.

As for myself, you might say, "oh, Phua's speaking nonsense, he is too 'humble' for himself". Truth is, i am being humble. I want to be humble because i never loved showboating. If you realised I never took "compliments" well, i would usually push them aside and say that i'm not that good, not that up-to-standard as you think. This is the way that i was brought up, never acclaim anything to yourself too much, always portray yourself as someone who is lower than the others. Being the normal,average guy.

You might say, "What on earth is phua rambling about?". All I can say is that this post is not more than just identifying human tendencies. It's also about the usual,normal way that a person will act.As i'm typing this, it's drizzling. You know what the normal human tendency is? You've guessed it, grab an umbrella and go or, brave the rain and step out of your house.

You might think,"i'm not this way"and all, but you have to examine yourself. I have creditablity as a human to say that this is a normal person's reaction.

Back to the topic(i think i got rather off the main topic), i realised that everyone in our community has a certain amount of "wants" and "needs". We clearly know what they are and how to distinguish them. BUT, our human tendencies get in the way. We always mix up our wants and needs. As a small child you go, "Daddy, i want this and that toy". And as a student you go, "Hey Dad, i need money for this weekend, I've got a date." As an adult you'll go, "Hey Honey, I need to show you this and that guitar, i think this could make a nice sixth guitar."

All these examples are very good in showing the misunderstanding of needs and wants. They usually start out as wants.But if they are allowed to grow and develop, our human mind will validate it and say that it is a need that we must have, no matter what. Your lunch might turn from a simple plate of fried rice, to keep you full, into an extremely expensive of crab that has little or no meat, costing up to 50-80 dollars.

I'm not saying that we humans indulge in expensive things, i'm saying that we should note our human tendencies and distinguish our needs and wants. We should be contented with what we have and not what we can't have.

What we have is what we deserve.
Phua.

Mono=1

2007-10-18T22:52:00.000-07:00

Hey guys, i decided to take a break from the issues of my mind and just post about the issues of my heart for this post today.

I was wondering how much our studies matter to us. No matter how we look at it, we never know that we are being stressed, or crushed, or brought to a point in our lives that we are changed. From what we are and into what we don't want to be. We can't control it but we know we can do something about it. We can take lemons and make lemonade.

Having found myself in situations that really push,pull and try to crush me, i have to admire my peers. They may seem stressed, but they don't show it. Not that this is a sign of strength. But this is a sign of strong willpower, tenacity and perserverance. I respect, envy and admire the faith, hope and love I see in the many friends that i have. Especially the people i study with almost everyday. You know who you are! I am supremely proud of you guys. It's not over but i have to say, whatever you guys have done has impacted my life, to a point where i know it's for the better.

Ups or downs don't ever make you guys falter and trials never make you discouraged. You lift up and encourage, you build up and create faith, hope and love. I am awed at the sight and i am very greatly encouraged.

So there you have it, my heart is at rest now. I am truly in debt to everyone who has helped me in my life.

Thank you all.
Phua.

Slogans and their Retail value

2007-10-14T07:15:00.000-07:00

Did you know that many of our beloved brands are heavy advertisers of their own products? It's a little rhethorical but yes, companies don't just make products for the fun of it, they want to make profits!(Who doesn't want to make money nowadays?)

I love observing examples of a person's daily life, filled with slogan after slogan. "Just do it, Nothing is impossible" are just examples of what people are facing everyday.

But are these things more than a slogan? More than that, are they just very smart marketing tactics? Do they
have the power to influence someone to buy or at least promote their products?

Nike. Everyone loves have a pair of sneakers from there. Well, it may be a personal choice, but I do not really like Nike sneakers. It's overrated. The important point, however, is to realise Nike's amazing marketing skills. They have had the slogan "Just Do It" for centuries now, it's so cliche and boring. So typical and predictable. You might think this way. But before Nike was born, no one dared to put slogans on and enforce them to such an extent.

Nike really emphasize their point when they have used the slogan to the point of negative impact. The "just do it, live today" craze probably came to the surface after Nike released their campaign. Nike's clear stand was against it, but when they saw that people were endorsing throwing away their money in return for possessions, Nike got pretty happy, and wealthy too. The side effects of this "revolution" of "live now, spend now than spend it for your funeral" mindset has placed an extremely high tension environment in our modern society, one where every man is for himself, one where selfishness and greed proclaim their authority.

No matter what happens, people will be this way. People are creatures of habit and their habits will not die down so easily. Unless, they are properly alerted to the situation. Unless someone makes a stand and says, "This is enough!". Nothing will change unless we, the makers of our own rise and fall, decide to change.

Our very decisions hang in the balance of whether society will continue to live in this very age, the age of greed and pride. The very Singaporean way to say this is that we will always remain "kiam siap" and "kia su" and obviously, "kia si". It's not official, but Singapore has become a prime example of a society based on habit. The old cultures, traditions and thoughts are kept in a way that sometimes calls for violence, political tension and much to our despair, internal meltdown. The latter of the situations may not be that imminent but trust me, if we decide not to change society, we will experience it one day.

What do I mean by the people keeping old cultures etc.? This is so very typical, especially from a Singaporean."Must be Multi-racial!, Must uphold Racial Harmony!". Let me rebuke this matter. What can I say about this?

The economy is very largely based on the Western countries. More recently, China and India have emerged as the bull market's leaders. The wealth is coming to Asia. But the thing that saddens me is that most of the time, Westerners prefer not to trade with the whole of Asia but only to a certain few "partners" that they have. How did they get these partners you might ask? This is a good example of being able to adapt to any situation. No doubt, China and India have strong cultural backgrounds. Their ideas and philosophies have a long, deep ancestry. But look at them today? China and India have broken into the American market by the very things they swore not to do, according to their cultural beliefs and religions. China is opening up large amounts of land, agriculture, mass media and so on and so forth to America. This is an act that you'll never see Mao or any of his followers do. This is an extreme cultural change that many Chinese reject, until they see the benefits of the American "power".

India, on the other hand, have always been very reluctant to open up trades in fear of the West breaking their religious roots. This day, however, Hollywood has indian-born film stars as well as a thriving trade business with India. No matter how you see it, there is no denying the economic growth they have enjoyed.

However, some laws should clearly be set. Boundaries must be made to ensure that the party involved in the trade does not get bullied and disrespected. America has been very careful so far as not to go and insult the Chinese or Indians in a way that will affect their economic ties. This is also a very good idea as this will strengthen diplomatic ties within the trading nations.

Clearly, nobody wants to see a failing economy. Nobody wants to live in poverty and suffering. So, if we must change society in Singapore to experience great growth as a nation, I believe that we should go all out to change it, making sure that everyone's welfare is not compromised due to disrespect. The supposedly insulted parties should also understand the other party's seemingly disrespectful views if the views can change the very situation they are in.

Therefore, we must strive to seek a balance in life and understand what and why something is said.
Phua.

Take Away

2007-10-10T09:59:00.000-07:00

Have you ever felt that you are going to fail? Feared the very swift destruction of the very thing you call life? Have you ever thought to yourself, "were my parents to blame?". "Was the way my parents 'protected' me the starting block for my rebellion, the one thing my parents dread?"

Is the Nature Versus Nurture issue still a big problem in your life? Do you truly understand the reasons behind teenage angst and anxiety?

Many parents have, over the generations, protected their young. These acts were simply "acts of love and mercy", a given for a child's parents. However, the parents never know this but the way they treat their child in the early development stage is crucial to their future. The parents should be informed about the risks of committing soul piercing acts on the children. These acts may consist of divorce, abuse and the mistreating of their very own flesh and blood. Some parents may argue that they are looking out for their children. But these parents never figure out the significance of the behaviour they have instilled in their children. Most children who live in bad conditions are the ones who will end up as the "baddies" of our generation. Examples of these children are Hilter, Mussolini and many others. The common factor between the first two examples is that they have changed the face of the world in their time. Unfortunately the change was negative.

The other point of view is that the Nurture process is the main cause of juvenile delinquents. This is especially true to me, as I have witnessed many cases with my own two eyes. The challenging part about this aspect is the unpredictability that the external factors will bring. The nurture process involves friends that are either good or bad in nature. If you end up with a person of good nature, you'll turn out good. And the result is the same likewise. This "Nurture" aspect is more believable as the factors cannot be controlled. And uncontrolled circumstances makes the case seem more realistic.

You've gotta know that whatever a person does has a ripple effect. If you pick out a book at the new book store, you'll probably see at least two people being interested in the exact same book. You'll never notice but the power of influence is always readily available in you, waiting for the perfect opportunity to either express positive views or the opposite. If a crook has a ripple effect, the amount of copycat burglars will be so huge that the neighbourhood will turn into a wasteland. This will cause a chain reaction that will start from the burglar and then to the shop keeper. The shopkeeper, being robbed, will look for revenue in cheating elderly ladies of their pension money. These ladies will then incur thousands upon thousands of debt on their children. These children, being parents, and bankrupt, will not provide a proper education to their children and under the right circumstances, the cycle will repeat with the children robbing anything in plain sight.

Yes, the example drawn maybe a little exaggerated but I find real meaning in the phrase, "Your friends make you who you are". It's so true that the Nurture effect has a large influence. However, everything on Earth is always balanced. For example, the crook might not have stolen anything if he wasn't born into a poor family. This proves the "Nature" point, a poor and lousy background. The "Nurture" point can be proven when suddenly the boy is pressured to steal a quick fix at the local 7-11, sparking off a theft spree. This might have all happened because of the boy's peers.

No matter which angle you analyse it from, you will see that the two are closely linked and every case must be handled personally.

Nature or Nurture?You decide.
Phua.

The Through Train

2007-10-07T10:07:00.001-07:00

Have you ever thought about your significance? About how much you really mean to everyone that you know? It may seem pretty strange but the natural human desire to be loved is always the winner. You will wonder, at a certain point of your life, whether someone who performs "acts of kindness" for example really cares and loves you. You'll usually think to yourself "How much does he/she care for me? Am I really someone to anyone?"

I'm not talking about the love-y dove-y kind of relationship. You have to realise that I am talking about lifelong relationships that will shape and mould the way you are so significantly that you are grateful towards your friends. Do you have friends that will lead you to a stage where you always feared to enter? Do you have friends that will not only care for you, they'll be there physically to support. One who does not bring you down but lifts you up, one who you can truly say that you love. Love as in a love that is not compelled into you by the responsibility of family, but of true appreciation of that person/persons care and concern.

You've probably never noticed this but you always have a person who you can turn to or look up to. Those that you can turn to are usually the complain receivers that listen to every single rant you have. Those that you look up to are those who will bring you from a valley to a mountain top. No matter how you look at your own situation, you always have someone. Always.

You have to take into account the perspective of the third person. You must realise that as a third person, you can try but you can't ALWAYS be there for someone. You can be there at certain periods. But you're still only human, you can't be at two places at once! You must realise that if it seems that no one is there to help you, it's probably the fact that the people you turn to are receiving help themselves! Giving the benefit of doubt can sometimes benefit you.

As a young adult of the tender age of 16, I'm not going to tell you to invest in your lands and stocks. The simplest thing you can bring into the game, as a youth, is your time, dedication and love. You can't expect someone to love you without replying with an attitude of love to that person in return. You really shouldn't expect any appreciation if you don't do it yourself. It applies across the board. For example, you can't tell a person you hurt until you yourself really feel that exact same hurt.

No matter, I want to do a monologue. I really appreciate and love everyone who's shown concern for me, in whatever way that you did. No matter how big or small your act may seem, Phua is truly grateful. I really wish I could return everyone that's helped me. And I know this blog post is a far cry to the deserved honour you guys should receive. Even so, I want to thank everyone who's invested in my life and made me who I am today. I love you guys. Seriously, so much that I'll do the exact same thing to you, if ever we switched places.

Every moment of your life is precious. Don't waste it!
Phua.

Nation or Monopoly? Country or Franchise? Island or Company?

2007-10-03T08:17:00.000-07:00

This post is inspired by a true Josh Tan "Moment".

"Nationalism"

Is Singapore an example of nationalism? Nationalism, firstly, from what I heard, is basically a total change of a surrounding and can either be positive or negative. An example can be brought from Napoleon, where he showed nationalism and wanted to prove that his native French culture was the best. He wanted to make France and French tradition the only option. It was absolute dominance he was going for.

Singapore can be referred to Napoleon. BUT! Please Please remember that these are just my views. Not harm or malicious content is meant to put down any government figures. I Love Singapore, truly. This is just what I think about Her.

Don't you think that Lee Kuan Yew is just like Napoleon? He's not such a tyrant, but he has certain traits. Firstly, he changed the fate of his country forever. This is a good point. But secondly, don't you realise that he is doing all this by exercising his authority that is gained from a spark of history- changing? C'mon, it's a chargeable offense to speak against him. Isn't this a little familiar? Napoleon surely used force against those who objected to his beliefs.

Don't you realise that the PAP is running the whole country by themselves? The "opposition" are just figure heads. The Worker's Party hammer and the SDA's star will not beat the PAP's Lightning powers. I personally believe that the PAP is doing a good job. But are they so afraid of losing "their" Singapore? They have to bear in mind that the very opposition they oust out are the ones who live under their "rule". The public, which contains the past, present and future candidates for opposition parties should be allowed to speak up. This will present a balanced view on how Singapore is doing.

So therefore my point is rather clear. Though Singapore is thriving, something is lacking. The one lacking point about Singapore is that the leaders are just too "kia-soo", simply put. They just can't stand up to any defeats. They have to realise that we learn important lessons from our failures.

Singapore Boleh!
(boleh directly translates to "can"

Phua.

Saturated? Unsaturated?

2007-10-01T07:35:00.000-07:00

Have you ever thought what's on a mind of a sixteen year old, living in Singapore?
DISCLAIMER: this might seem to refer to teenagers nowadays, but any coincidences or references are purely fictional.

The mind of a teenager is filled with thoughts. It can be filled with so many things that at one time, their brains are dealing with at least 15 thoughts! Not healthy for a student who's only responsibility is to study hard and do well for their exams.

How hard is it for a person how is say, 15 to 16 to handle stressful situations is one of the greatest fears in their lifes. However hard they seem to avoid this, there's always an extra responsibility that, usually, their parents give to them. This duty, whatever it may be is either given to them consciously or sub-consciously.

Whatever the cause, we've gotta to realise that this is not just an extra "small" and "easy-to-handle" situation. The parents have to realise that not every child will grow up to be like them. Hence, the "faith" they put in their son/daughter should not be an amount in which they themselves cannot handle. It's just stupid if you chuck a matter into a child's hand when you, an adult, can't handle it in the first place.

For those who don't agree with me, all I can say is that you're not seeking the teenagers point of view. How on earth is someone half your age supposed to cope with things that are meant to be for their elders to worry about? What's more, additional stress and pressure will be added when they don't hit the criteria for "maturity" in their parent's eyes. This added pressure will not deem them any favors in their exams. No doubt, they should be allowed to focus, allowed to be freed in their thoughts and emotions, at least until they are rid of their study obligations.

I'm not defending the youths of today's society. I am begging for parents to make the right choices, make the wise decisions. The right step will give you stress, no doubt. But look ahead and press on, for your children's future is at hand.

To stress or not to stress? Ask yourselves.

Phua.

Love has it's limits.

2007-09-25T09:27:00.000-07:00

Love is a many splendid thing. Don't you agree?

I might agree to this in the next few years. Don't get me wrong, I believe in Love.

But what's the problem with love nowadays?

Don't the teenagers know that love has it's limits?

Our human love has it's limits. C'mon guys. It's very prominent. Break-ups and divorces are so rampant nowadays. Isn't this a sure fire way of finding out that love has it's limits?

Apparently not! Divorce is one of the easiest cases to find on the jury's duty list. What more can I say about the limits that love has?

Do you seek real love? Do you feel like you're gonna explode if you don't find a partner?

Can i ask you?You many readers, why do you seek love in people all the time? Do you not know the Heavenly Father has provided for your every need?

Some people view love as a hindrance. Is this really true? I don't find enjoyment in this "love seeking" that you guys crave. Yes, people do crave for it but do not realize it. However, they are not just oblivious to it, they begin to affect others, usually the closest to them.

This does create a ripple effect and does affect the others. Not only does this negligence bring down morale, it brings down the overall mood.

God's love is much better than anyone's.Bear this in mind while I end this very short post.

Phua.

The walk of Faith

2007-09-22T21:21:00.001-07:00

What's there to life without friends and family to pull you along? And what's more to life if there isn't any music?(Tommy Emmanuel, to be specific)

Phua.

Who am i?

2007-09-22T09:27:00.001-07:00

Who am I? Is it a question you always ask yourself?

I find myself to ask that question quite a lot nowadays. It never seems that I'm asking. But deep down I'm aching to know who i really am.

Am I just one who everyone can talk to? Am I someone of significant importance?

It's always this way don't you think? The answer to our predicament is always in the action of taking a step back and realizing what I done, received and reap. Though I may be 16, many of those who know me might not agree. Just weird that everyone thinks I'm 18 or something. 18 or not, i don't think it's just my facial features or what not. It's just the "atmosphere", as many of you call it.

It's not about Phua or what he has. It's about the Holy Spirit. He not only taught me how to react in certain situations or dilemma. What I recommend to anyone is just to wake up. Don't just go on living life like it's a breeze. Accept the difficulties and eventually the easy times will just roll in. You'll never know it's easy until you know what's tough right?

O levels this year? Take heed. It's tough, I'm dying too. But why disappoint yourself with bad grades and realize you can do so much better the next year? I'm pretty sure that you don't wanna see yourself in the school uniform you've been dying to get rid of right?

Take it, Break it, Anoint it.
Nothing works if you don't anoint it. Take the third step.

Phua.

Right or wrong? Love or hate?

2007-09-21T08:26:00.000-07:00

Ah. I'm back with another piece of information.

It's about this question. "Right or Wrong? Love or Hate?"

Let's talk about the ever constant issue with our beloved parents nowadays. Teenage relationships.

Firstly, advantages. As you might know, love is blind. And trust me, I've witnessed too much of blind love in my short 16 year life span. Many times the love either dies out or in rare cases, exists till marriage and throughout life. The latter might be a good thing to many, but i love going against the grain and give an unexpected answer. Therefore, I say that teenage relationships are actually good, to a certain, very small extent. Do not get me wrong, I might say it's good and all but I do not intend to get attached anytime soon. However, we must look at the "beneficial" side to teenage relationships.

Your parents might not agree to the fact that you have a girlfriend/boyfriend at the age of say, 13-16? But having a partner shows your character. Where, you might ask? Well, to start off, loving is not about how much you proclaim, how much to give. It's a willingness to pull out the I in yourself to turn all your attention to that person. Be it a couple's love or a family's love, that's how it works. Also, you can give without loving but can't love without giving.

So if you think what I just wrote is rubbish, beseech my next sentence. GIVE! Give not only to your loved ones, give to anyone who is willing to accept your love. Where your treasure is, there your heart is also. Right? For that to be true, your giving must not be superceded by your profession of love. Of course, giving does not just include your finances. It can include your time, affection, feelings and pretty much anything you can give.

I've been talking so much about giving haven't I? Let's change the topic. What's in the mind of the opposition? Why do people reject to teenage relationships? You might want to cross these few examples you've probably heard from your parents before.

1. Too little money/no steady job
2. Still schooling
3. Not mature enough
4. Insecure around the opposite gender
5. Insensitive to another person

Out of the five, you've probably a 3 right? These reasons are the most common and generic reasons or should i call them...excuses? However, if you really lack in a point, I'll advice you not to try getting attached.

Being in a relationship takes up alot of your strength. Someone once told me, "Loving your partner is like God loving you.'' Can you imagine that? You have to be "God" to your partner! You have to provide, just as you did to birds, an amount of love that no words can describe. No amount of measurement can measure. You have to achieve that before a true relationship begin.

So there's your answer. Please don't go blindly into any relationship without the proper preparations, in your heart and lifestyle. If you're gonna hurt you partner in the relationship. Please, do yourself a favour and don't try. Remember, Love is 1% inspiration and 99% perspiration.

That wasn't so bad huh? Till next time.

Phua.

Left or Right?Mars or Venus?Logical or Emotional?

2007-09-14T09:30:00.000-07:00

Left or Right?Mars or Venus?Logical or Emotional?
How different are the two sexes, Male and Female? Are they just merely a man and his rib? Or are they the creation of a thousand years of "evolution"? Whatever the reason, there are tons of differences between a Man and a Woman.

Firstly, and most obviously, there is a large difference between a man's physical body and a woman's. But not only is the difference skin deep, there are many differences underneath that layer of annoying irritation. The male hormones are highly reactive, highly volatile and much more one dimensional than their female counterparts. But however awesome the female may sound, the saying goes, everything has pros and cons. Having a good thing here might mean a bad thing somewhere else. No one's perfect right?

Just take a step further. It's not just the physical aspects of the two sexes that are different. A large amount of thinking, that happens in the neurological system known as the Brain, occurs to have differences when comparing a male and female. The male works on logical thinking, where he is brought into belief by mere sight and internal comprehension from the scene in front of him. The female, however, does not have just logic, she has a significantly larger use of her emotional brain. This part of the brain not only tells her to believe what she sees, it takes it a step further by being able to transmit signals that affect body language, consciousness and overall well being. This means that more often than not, a woman can better control her feelings and according to popular belief, will live longer compared to a man.

Superiority has always been an issue. Scientists believe that every foetus is female in the most early stage of pregnancy, usually within the first few week. Only after a certain period, under certain conditions, that the foetus will slowly transform into a male baby. However, the Holy Bible states that Man, or more specifically Adam, was more important. So important that a woman had to be made out of Man's rib.

Legend has it that males are superior. But we must sit on the fence on this issue. Women have definitely proved themselves worthy of gaining superiority over certain man. But, with the emotional aspect taken in, a stressful decision might be made better by a man than a woman, seeing that the decision needs a logical answer.

If you ask me, a man will take a lifetime to understand a woman. This constant curiosity and desire to know more, if genuine, will spark off relationships that bind through, till death does it part.

This will be one of the many snippets of my mind that i will upload onto my blog. Please feel free to argue your point, I'm very open to discuss any issues. Tag it and I will reply to it a.s.a.p.

long over due

2007-06-14T10:30:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone, I think this blog post is way LONG LONG overdue! Well i just wanted this post to be more...mellow? more about myself and what i think about sometimes. So, get yourself some chips because this will take awhile=)Thank you though, for taking to effort to read this.

Well, as you guys might have known. I am taking my O's this year. As i said this was overdue, i am quite backdated about updating my personal life on this blog. So when my mid year results came in. Bam..what results?!Not being to serious about this. I fared quite badly. And can you believe it?DNT pulled me UP. Up is not a word i use with DNT my friends. Maths was ownage, so was my science. Everybody thought everything was fine..and all. But truth is results do matter. especially at my mid years. i mean no one will accept a student who fails right?Imagine a soccer team without players who have feet. weird? Yes. My friends, as i look through that result slip.I actually didn't even read it through,sorry. I glanced at it and thought, "i'm screwed". So there, i do actually see myself..in a good institution in the near future. But as usual, hindrances always come.

Fortunately, on a happier note, I did improve from secondary 3. Back then, i was worse. Ha. I cannot visualize myself before this year. It's too big of a change for me. I've never looked back at myself and thought, "man i've deproved". Thankfully, i've been blessed.Tremendously i might say.

SO. What am i doing,writing about this rubbish? I didnt write this to make anyone sob over me, come talk to me. But all i did this was to engage my "rubbish" to a channel where i know i won't feel stupid or embarassed to do what I've done. Thanks to the "blogs" ha.

Great inventions, these things. To imagine that before 1945,what we knew was considered spat compared to what we know now.Blah Blah everybody's talking about mass media, information technology.Can you imagine that our grand parents or maybe great grandparents don't know what Macdonalds is?

Speaking about Macdonald's..I've always wanted to watch the Morgan Spurlock documentary, "Super-Size Me".I believe that this movie just smacks Macdonald's in the face,informing the general public that ignorance is not "bliss".It never is. Don't go around and listening to people advising you to not probe while again they say, "ignorance is bliss".

In closing(yes im going to end this ramble of mine!), I think that Civil rights should be sought. Even in a country we live in..Singapore..social issues,local and global, must be resolved.I can't take it.So what if your poor,hungry and illiterate? You deserve a CHANCE. Everyone does.

Well, now is the time that I close. I bid everyone who read this crap of mine a good day and a shower of blessings. God Bless!(not bad huh?:))

Calvin Phua

2007-04-30T04:23:00.000-07:00

HI I AM PHUA's friend claled JOSHUA =D yes we are at macs right now studying. ok well SUPPOSEDLY studying. PHUA PLAYING PSP. and jerome is watching while IM USING THE FREE INTERNET. its 725. WE ARE GONNA START STUDYING REAL SOON. so who ever reading this. WE DID STUDY. ALLOT. yes yes. some one get phua of the psp. ROCKING MAN. ok phua didnt go to school today. he was sleeping at home. TIRED. JEROME DIDNT GO AS WELL. only joshua went. what a good boy. (though he slept throughout) FINALLY phua updates huh. ok till next time BYE. phua says he rock.

The end of the year

2006-12-30T12:44:00.000-08:00

What bestows upon me for the year 2007 as 2006 closes.

Well 2006 has been a year of ups and downs for me....

Nothing much came about in the first few months but the police cup was one of the most significant things during this time..it was the first time i was winning a gold medal in a national rugby tournament.

June this year i went over to England..Though the trip to england was a bumpy, emotional one...its only led to be where i am today...where you see me.I am strengthened through things that have tested me by putting me through the fire.

I have burned to the point of tears.But I am not someone who quits easily!!

Another significant point was my water baptism!I have finally outwardly proved i am a child of God and nothing in the world can stop me...

Also,December has been a great month...a time where promotion lies in the wake of the 5 Christmas services...so far i have not enjoy a year of my life so fully!!!

I know God has a great time prepared for me and I am looking forward to 2007!

Peace...and Happy New Year=)

What thing.

2006-12-18T21:23:00.000-08:00

Well...i was water baptised on saturday 16 december!

Calvin has died,Joseph has risen!

New nick joe!

Standard ar...all call me joe=)

Well under the cover lots been going on...nothing much i can say...but my over used line..

"Help me help you" and "What can i do if you don't want help?"

HA...what a joke...

Making me laugh man....

Good day...im off to pray up a storm.

Thanks by the way...trouble me for nothing.

WHY?

2006-12-01T10:00:00.001-08:00

Why? We always seem to ask ourselves...always asking others also.But have your thought along this line..What could i have done to make things better?what could i have done to keep them in?what could i have done to protect those under me?in my covering?

The mind always asks itself..WHY!Its a big issue...but what can we do?its not a matter of how...but its a matter of why!Why didnt you do this...why didnt you do that.

I mean we have to face the fact that we humans have a tendency to put off what wee can do today to tommorrow...and so far tommorrow hasnt come yet...I do not understand this even though i know we are guilty of this.

No matter how hard we try...its always..too hard....unaccomplishable....impossible!I CANT STAND IT.TRY TRY TRY...thats all we can do?well try harder...cause you're all not trying hard enough!

Don't worry...phua's still holding up well...Just that my mind's cranky now.

God bless...will blog soon.

Long awaited comeback

2006-11-22T19:49:00.000-08:00

Long awaited comeback!

im back to blogging!Its really a long time since i've blogged...

I was just thinking along the line of BGRs....i really feel that those looking to attached...its kinda because of a lack of the Holy Spirit...yeah its like.......

Hmm....how should i put this.Its a lack of understanding!yes yes...its a lack of understanding and this can be solved with the infilling of the Holy Spirit...so here's my advice...catch it if you can...haha

I have been tremendously blessed ever since i've pledge to the building fund=)and yes thats very good.ah ha...I've so far gotten a new guitar...new shirts jean and lot of other clothing and accesories!Also...there's a confidential case where i can get extremely blessed!

So praise God that even before I fulfill my pledge i am getting so blessed=)

"so blessed that i cant contain!"

i shall blog again soon...in the mean time please be patient!

i am back.

2006-09-19T03:05:00.000-07:00

OH!!!!!hey i am back! Its been a long while since i've ever blogged.Since last month i think=)

I've been thinking alot lately and i think i have changed?Just the way i act and behave around people i am close to.But its a good change!I've learnt many things from my leaders,mentors and loved ones. Iron sharpens iron indeed!

And i think i am doing better for my studies! I managed to do my E maths without a fuss in the test today?!I've really grown,in my eyes,alot since i last remembered....like when i was England and now is a very very very different Me."No longer I but Christ lives in me". It really means something to me now.

Ill be trying my best to update my blog from now on.Usually im too tired or too lazy to enter my blog account.But now i really dont mind it!BUT first of all! let me conquer my final year exams which is in two weeks time!God bless everyone for the FYE!

Dr. A.R. Bernard

2006-08-21T08:53:00.000-07:00

Happiness is.

I have never thought about it....but am i happy?Have i learnt tp have wisdom and understanding?Have i learnt to deal with negative emotions in my life?

Blessings are well....Uncountable! I wanna thank God for all the people placed in my life.With no money,I still survived.I will pay back what I owe with what I have.But I still cant find out how I will ever outgive God,creator of the universe!

Dr A.R. Bernard is one of the greatest preachers I have ever heard in my life!Only Pastor Ulf and Pastor Kong is better to me.XD He signed my book"Happiness is" even!Though i didnt get to talk to him or shake his hand.He ministering with the God-given annointing is already GOOD enough!

Transition is a very hard time to go through.With the final year exams coming,the expection to rise up and maintain there during this time is super tough.BUT i pray,in Jesus name,No weapon against me shall prosper! For You are the Way,the Truth and the Life! YAY!

Happy post=)

youth revival+national day.

2006-08-11T19:39:00.000-07:00

YOUTH REVIVAL!

This Thursday was the Youth Revival Meeting.
IT WAS AWESOME!
Me and Stuart was playing for Praise and Worship.
Thou his Maton died,
GOD still entered in a great way.
with all the technical difficulties.
We still managed to have a great time!

National Day

Singapore is 41 this year!!
I saw a small portion of fireworks on friday at the Esplanade.
Even if it was small,
it was good to see hundreds on people there,
being patriotic and all.haha

FOP

2006-08-06T07:23:00.000-07:00

FOP is AWESOME!!!!

Solid stuff from the CCC band and Don Moen. The CCC band really let the whole of Singapore's churchs into a powerful time of praise and worship.Don Moen fitted the older more conservative generation.

Queuing is a menice at the Indoor Stadium man!!!so many people,security and regulations to follow.BUT thanks to certain people!(thank you!!!)we had very good seats whenever i was there=)

EXCITED till the state of insomia.The expentancy to play for the revival meeting is super BIG and kan chiong.Wonder how it will be on stage.

This is the way i will learn how to do things though.Once done the second time will be easier.And the following would be even easier!!!

Might be playing Electric guitar though.Have to learn it soon.The CPX700 is a nice guitar by Yamaha.It is just nice for me.Action,size,everything is just nice.800 dollars seems reasonable for an almost custom made guitar!

SAVING UP...

2006-07-30T07:12:00.000-07:00

Your Personality Style Description: calvin is an optimistic individual. He is the type of person who loves exploring new places or things and a wide variety of experiences. He tends to display a natural charisma that draws others to his charm. calvin is a very encouraging person; others are drawn to him because they find him inspirational.

A loyal friend, calvin is patient and caring when attending to the needs of others. He is usually an even-paced individual who thrives in a peaceful, harmonious environment. He tends to be quite predictable, sticking with proven, reliable methods of dealing with situations rather than taking chances with a new, unproven approach.

Neat and orderly, others usually see calvin as practical. He needs adequate information to make decisions, and he will consider the pros and cons. He may be sensitive to criticism, and will tend to internalize his emotions. calvin likes to clarify expectations before undertaking new projects, and he will follow a logical process to gain successful results.

Because he cares about how others feel, calvin may feel uncomfortable making decisions that strongly affect others. He typically encourages others to be involved in the decision making process and prefers to work in a team role. Others tend to see calvin as agreeable and humble.

personality

2006-07-30T07:07:00.000-07:00

My Biblical Personality Style:

Inspirational & Intuitive: As an "I" style, your personality is similar to Biblical heroes like the Apostle Peter, Barnabas, Abigail and Miriam. All of these people had charisma; and with their ability to encourage and inspire others, they were popular people to be around. Peter was the natural spokesperson for the twelve apostles, Abigail went and spoke to David on behalf of her foolish husband Nabal and inspired David to take the high road in a bad situation.

Personal growth areas for the high "I" style include gaining a sense of balance in all they do since they tend to always see the positive side of things and sometimes underestimate the difficulties that lie ahead. Peter, who proclaimed he would never deny Christ, had no idea of the events that would cause him to lose his confidence, deny knowing Christ, and then feel rejected. Yet Peter regained his passion and purpose and fifty days later stood in front of thousands and boldly told of all the things that had happened. Peter quickly was regarded as one of the early church leaders, and was a great evangelist and gospel writer.

Deliverance

2006-07-30T06:19:00.000-07:00

Some say delieverance is not for the now.I say that is crap.because i just experienceed it so strongly and tangibly that it has to be real and for us TODAY.

I went to both services and both ministry sessions during this weekend with Pastor Mike Connell.

I can tell you it was the one best meeting i have ever attended since i dunno when!!!!!I felt manifestation even during the preaching...i felt churning within me and i didnt know wat it was.

When I went up...i already felt light-feeted?.really just a little force would have just hit me down.I could barely stand straight when i was in the prayer line.

THEN it came.The Holy Spirit and Jesus the Deliverer came RIGHT INTO MY BODY AND SOUL,driving all the "things" in me out.Coughing and me feeling a strong heat indicated it was no longer I.But CHRIST who lives in me.

After this great experience....i have know learnt I must release forgiveness...if not the demons will come back and proclaim they have a right to be in me.

I have learnt to forgive from the bottom of my heart and i will not be hurt by this matter again.

AMEN

Songs

2006-07-26T04:08:00.000-07:00

OH!!!!!!!!!i have the mp3 of song written by ME and RICO.

Please kindly ask around for the mp3 and circulate haha

Contact me at calvin_phua@hotmail.com for the songs!

Thank you.

HELLO

2006-07-24T07:06:00.000-07:00

A Sermon From A Teacher

Havent blogged in a long time

Mr Phoon from our school...yes! that one.

He was talking to me and two other latecomers.It was like a sermon...though he said it was not...

Freedom and Responsibility
F for freedom and R for responsibility.

F and R are on the see-saw of life...when we are young...F is small and R is also small.We only have the R to study as students.As we grow older...our parents want us to live on our own two feet.

Growing up...we want the F to be as big as possible.but with the more F you have...the more R u take up.If F grows bigger...There is much more R to take...

However remember all things must be balanced and if F is big...R should be big to counter the weight of F.Responsibility shows how much u mature and that will gain you more F from parents and other authority figures.

How simple it may be.But it struck a string in my heart...

With all these things happening now....my parents and all are overseas....me and my sister have took up a great responsibilty and have to take care of the house...finances,food and any other stuff...stress and pressure have come upon my once "study only" life.

Look like i have to take it up upon myself to go through this time.With God by my side and the Holy Spirit within me....there is nothing that is too big for Him.

Cant wait for another time of just pressing into God's presence...as i learn how to really worship God...that will bring upon the Presence of God when i play the guitar.Strengthening my Spirit-man will make me grow STRONGER and I will press unto that higher call!!!

That was long huh=)

GLORY

2006-07-21T18:32:00.000-07:00

Glory
Glorious is my King!!!

I have been blessed ever since I have been committed to the Will of God.Commitment is the key to showing your maturity and determination to continue on an interest or a task i've been given.

God is SO GREAT!All my guitars are given to me by my father's friends and my uncle=)I believe they did not want to give me...but God moved them to give me their guitars...haha...even though they are worth 1k or more!(morris)

My faith level has increased during these 3 to 4 weeks since i came back to Singapore...I have learnt to focus on the promises and not on the disappointments.As I go down further into a life with Christ....I believe the Holy Spirit will instill more of Himself in me!!!

I have been writing another song now...with myself this time...ive thought of all thats happen...and well even in times of need we still have to praise God!There will be a preview of the song soon.When i get it done=)

I am going to go for my own cell group meeting now.Its gonna be POWER today!!!!!
See you readers soon!

Divine Appointment

2006-07-18T22:51:00.000-07:00

Never in my life has such a greater cause opened my eyes...

God is my Abba father and no one can stop my from getting nearer to Him!

I have SOMETHING extra that not anyone has...the FREEDOM

I will be like a daniel!strong start AND finish!!!

I will not fast-forward anything except growth in God

Everything is placed by God and it is appointed for me=)

Vent...now Bent

2006-07-16T06:52:00.000-07:00

Anger,fatigue and disappointment is overcome by just one line.

He is FAITHFUL when i am faithless!!!!

Do not ever step over my boundaries.You will know when u do when i cut you off my circle of friends and nver talk to you.

p.s.
Hypocrites SUCK.

that felt Good....anyway....i claimed my healing when Pastor Che Ahn was the speaker and ministered to the congregation...he stirred up the faith i had to receive my healing!

The toe will get better with time to come...God has breathed His breath on it!

Stress?Long time no see...

2006-07-12T08:08:00.000-07:00

Ever wondered whether Phua would break down?!

THE TIME IS NOW

i am super tired...tired of living just the normal life...its just dry and unsatisfying...wats a life without surprises and pleasant treats...life may not be a bed of roses...at least make it a bed of tulips or something...have something pleasant to talk about...if not dun talk to me!

Really need a break...never in my life ive ever been so tired and dry...

Lord fill my Cup and make me whole!
Take my life and make it BOLD!

off to charge my batt with GOD!WHOOSH!!!!!!

How Now?

2006-07-11T04:53:00.000-07:00

i was searching through my stuff and i found an mp3 player!my dad must have changed the old spoilt one for it=)well its 4 gb...and with my songs gone ill have to ask everybody for songs!

WHEN I'M WEAK YOU ARE STRONG
YOU'RE MY FEET WHEN I CAN'T MOVE ON
YOU ARE THE LIGHT IN THE DARK
YOU'RE THE WHISPER INSIDE MY HEART

These words went through my mind as i didnt go to school today...just because i overslept.Had the time..

Was quite down and this song really encouraged me...now ya...just gonna live happier and grow stronger!I know my God WILL pull me through=)

New song!!!!!

2006-07-09T08:41:00.000-07:00

this song is composed by me and rico....copyright laws apply=)

Carry On_

Verse:
When all around me Crumbles,
Even when I Stumble.
You were there.
and you gave me the strength
the strength to soar

Chorus :
You're my strength when all else fails,
you were there to pick me up.
and i carry on.
because of you.

Verse:
When all around me Crumbles,
Even when I Stumble.
You were there.
and you gave me the strength
the strength to soar

Chorus.

Bridge :
and I'll sing,
for all youve done
i'll sing

Chorus.

because of you
because of you
because of you

I carry on...

Send Your Power Today

2006-07-09T04:52:00.000-07:00

iq,eq,pq...and lastly RQ...

i think this message is just the Word E412 and N353 needs...SOME people actually...the message really meant something to them...but why were they not there to hear it!!!

Multiplication is just another step in life...a stumbling stone will be a stepping stone if we adorn the right attitude and be positive...always look on the bright side of things...anyway most of us are from the same school...and the rest still exist...still can call or sms...growth often makes you leave something behind...make you hurt...after the hurt you are another level higher!He will never leave you nor forsake you

They should have been there!the message was so suitable...But its ok...ill just see them "die"...they will crawl back to the Lord!

Still the Lord will bring us together according to His Will!One day...

sucks man...3st sucks

2006-07-04T00:35:00.000-07:00

hypocritical...two faced!ARGH! man....aiyo i cant stand it u know...irritating people...cant stand them anymore....ANYWAY

school is getting boring..and my class sucks...cant get happy even if i wanted to...i just cant really be around my classmates...well almost all of them...i think i really should have gone to other classes man...so many of them la!even churched...same church somemore...aiyo...just cant stand...i know they try but its not enuff...

when time calls for me to blog...ill blog again

well...

2006-07-01T21:51:00.000-07:00

well its one week in school...not a very good start la..went back to typical classes...so boring...the new teachers...aiyo...i think i gave a bad impression and the teacher also made a bad one on me

Day to day same schooling days...kinda sucks man...super super super tired after having training since the last time i had training was 3-4 months ago..stupid broken toe...

i cant even bother blogging la...wasting time....ill rather live my life

long time man...

2006-06-25T04:10:00.000-07:00

its really been a long time ive been to service!3 weeks in fact...but after coming back from england i finally went to service...my goodness i forgot how good pastor kong's preaching was man!he preached a storm...and brother poh,sidney,brother david etc. solid la! they even started praise with my favourite song lol...

leaving singapore has made me realise the things i have in singapore and its like nicotine redrawal la...cant do without it=)thanks to all the guys who welcome me back and made me feel ever closer to this family of mine...

OH no! haha i gained weight la...everybody thinks i lost weight...i gained like 5-6 kg...eeee i must lose again...now my diet is cereals ok! and LOW fat milk haha...i will lose untill 55 then i will start my old diet=)

Yesterday when we celebrated val's birthday....wow i saw her face when all the presents were given haha...super happy lor...but i dun think its the presents...its the thought that counts..presents just represent that thought we have=)but of course christian, rico and my present was the best lol...first time i really saw a present of this calibre..solid leh...haha

hmm...i got nothing more to blog about...just reminding all that i love to play winning eleven on xbox...and whoever has a spare,not playing or extra disc please please lend me!haha original only thanks!ill write about other stuff soon!!

2006-06-22T06:43:00.000-07:00

wow...stongehedge=)one of the many place i went la...i think it was kinda too tourist oriented...sell all the rubbish...the stones still nice though...er...stonehedge is over 3 thousands old or something i think...on the right is durdle door...its super nice for some rocks...again...the small pebble beach there is kinda nice too=)

whao!crazy horse la...nver see chinese people before ar...kool man haha i was at the buckingham palace then walked over to where the queens guards were...near ten downing street where tony blair lives!kool lol

haha went to the big ben as well...ignore the big brown spots on my face...they are scars from cold sores...and they hurt!

there are many more pictures...but of course i am too lazy cause got over 300...if u really wanna see then tell me=)

im back!

2006-06-20T02:16:00.000-07:00

i have spent over 100 pounds on watever i bought in a 3 week trip!all this stuff will be worn through now till sometime in july.i bought 3 pair of shoes.4 shirts.2 jackets.a tie.lots more la haha.thank goodness not my cash haha.

all this stuff was paid for by my mother cause some smart forgot to change money before going overseas.all due to smart time management and almost missing the check in.

on the 12 hour plane ride home...all in my mind was getting off and being on ngaporean land!but not too bad...the pilot took a different flight plan and it only took 10 hours=)it was super hot and no individual screens.thousands practially wasted on crap service too.

but i should not complain..im back in singapore!looking forward to enjoy the last week of the holidays and maybe to enjoy the school term.i will upload the pics as soon as i get the pics from my sister and as soon as i learn how to.XD

nowadays world cups are getting really boring.beside the odd great goal...many matches have early goals or late goals.early goals make you excited to start with then as the game gets boring when no goal or action happens...you wanna wait for more...waste time lor!late goal worse...make you wait and wait until soon turn off the match expecting no goals.tml morning paper said 1 nil or 2 nil.haiz.

its 213 am and the sweden englandis approaching.i forgot to wear my england shirt la!but i support spain.the england shirt is just cheap=)and got my favourite player lampard's name.

6 to 6 fast..12 hours seems ok and great for my spirit man i think..well i am used to it and ya i will just type more rubbish to extend this..im am just really waiting for the match to start..lalala...boring..i realised there is msn 8 beta...should get it soon..er..oh ya i am saving up for a new guitar and donations would be galdy received.just abit of saving will allow to buy a maestro.

jack johnson is mad.his songs are just mad to play...just a small part can take me n hour to learn haha..but i have so far learnt two songs but only parts of it..um...sitting waiting wishing and upside down too.its fun to play his songs la...so folky and childy..you can imagine cartoons next to you just like in the video.

Is blogging for me?

2006-06-16T17:33:00.000-07:00

alright!ive got this blog thing on the right track...thanks to help from melissa...thank you...well i think mostly this blog will be mainly based on the crap and events that happen in my lame life....to start off i am in england...um....gloucester to be exact.its some boring old countryside with a good town centre thats all.The highlight of my 3 week holiday is so far my ONE day trip to london!haha i went to funny places...like harrods,piccadilly circus,trafalgar square e.t.c. i almost went to arsenal station to visit highbury for the last time.time constrains prevented me yet again.

shopping in swindon was also a highlight day despite being bored.swindon is a small village..best known for 1 thing...the mega designer brand mall...where all the stuff is super cheap when there are offers.its like a mad mall....it had nike,ralph lauren,levis and some other great stalls la...of course i bought some stuff...paid by my mother lol because someone forgot to change money for a holidayXO i got pairs of nike shoes,one a crap total 90 fully red but the other is a nike air tempo blue in colour and i think it is 4x2 studs.i almost got a ralph lauren shirt but its was £50...killer price..

There are many things that are new in my life=)so much of clothes and shoes and even a jacket.the best so far is this new guitar my dad bought me before going off to dubai for his work.i mean i was just asking off hand la..he really got me one..though i thought england was boring after going sight seeing wasnt that fun...the shopping was its only saving grace.

overall london is 7/10
7 because it has qutie good sight to see in london and its also caters to others who enjoy the rural lifestyle.7 because of the distance and the length of the flight.even in england itself you have to drive super far lor.this blog came up well...when my trip was due to end.no matter...singapore can also be fun...i will enjoy another 14 hour flight to singapore again this sunday.the worse is that in thai airways...the stewardesses and stewards and in traditional costumes and speak with that thai accent which will blow your mind after a few hours.

i leave with this note."england sucks if your not in london"

testing

2006-06-16T17:04:00.000-07:00

i just posted this thingy for the first time!woo!LOL