Saturday, December 30, 2006

The end of the year

What bestows upon me for the year 2007 as 2006 closes.

Well 2006 has been a year of ups and downs for me....

Nothing much came about in the first few months but the police cup was one of the most significant things during this time..it was the first time i was winning a gold medal in a national rugby tournament.

June this year i went over to England..Though the trip to england was a bumpy, emotional one...its only led to be where i am today...where you see me.I am strengthened through things that have tested me by putting me through the fire.

I have burned to the point of tears.But I am not someone who quits easily!!

Another significant point was my water baptism!I have finally outwardly proved i am a child of God and nothing in the world can stop me...

Also,December has been a great month...a time where promotion lies in the wake of the 5 Christmas services...so far i have not enjoy a year of my life so fully!!!

I know God has a great time prepared for me and I am looking forward to 2007!

Peace...and Happy New Year=)

Monday, December 18, 2006

What thing.

Well...i was water baptised on saturday 16 december!

Calvin has died,Joseph has risen!

New nick joe!

Standard ar...all call me joe=)

Well under the cover lots been going on...nothing much i can say...but my over used line..

"Help me help you" and "What can i do if you don't want help?"

HA...what a joke...

Making me laugh man....

Good day...im off to pray up a storm.

Thanks by the way...trouble me for nothing.

Friday, December 01, 2006


Why? We always seem to ask ourselves...always asking others also.But have your thought along this line..What could i have done to make things better?what could i have done to keep them in?what could i have done to protect those under me?in my covering?

The mind always asks itself..WHY!Its a big issue...but what can we do?its not a matter of how...but its a matter of why!Why didnt you do this...why didnt you do that.

I mean we have to face the fact that we humans have a tendency to put off what wee can do today to tommorrow...and so far tommorrow hasnt come yet...I do not understand this even though i know we are guilty of this.

No matter how hard we try...its always..too hard....unaccomplishable....impossible!I CANT STAND IT.TRY TRY TRY...thats all we can do?well try harder...cause you're all not trying hard enough!

Don't worry...phua's still holding up well...Just that my mind's cranky now.

God bless...will blog soon.

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

Long awaited comeback

Long awaited comeback!

im back to blogging!Its really a long time since i've blogged...

I was just thinking along the line of BGRs....i really feel that those looking to attached...its kinda because of a lack of the Holy Spirit...yeah its like.......

Hmm....how should i put this.Its a lack of understanding!yes yes...its a lack of understanding and this can be solved with the infilling of the Holy Spirit...so here's my advice...catch it if you can...haha

I have been tremendously blessed ever since i've pledge to the building fund=)and yes thats very good.ah ha...I've so far gotten a new guitar...new shirts jean and lot of other clothing and accesories!Also...there's a confidential case where i can get extremely blessed!

So praise God that even before I fulfill my pledge i am getting so blessed=)

"so blessed that i cant contain!"

i shall blog again soon...in the mean time please be patient!

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

i am back.

OH!!!!!hey i am back! Its been a long while since i've ever blogged.Since last month i think=)

I've been thinking alot lately and i think i have changed?Just the way i act and behave around people i am close to.But its a good change!I've learnt many things from my leaders,mentors and loved ones. Iron sharpens iron indeed!

And i think i am doing better for my studies! I managed to do my E maths without a fuss in the test today?!I've really grown,in my eyes,alot since i last remembered....like when i was England and now is a very very very different Me."No longer I but Christ lives in me". It really means something to me now.

Ill be trying my best to update my blog from now on.Usually im too tired or too lazy to enter my blog account.But now i really dont mind it!BUT first of all! let me conquer my final year exams which is in two weeks time!God bless everyone for the FYE!

Monday, August 21, 2006

Dr. A.R. Bernard

Happiness is.

I have never thought about it....but am i happy?Have i learnt tp have wisdom and understanding?Have i learnt to deal with negative emotions in my life?

Blessings are well....Uncountable! I wanna thank God for all the people placed in my life.With no money,I still survived.I will pay back what I owe with what I have.But I still cant find out how I will ever outgive God,creator of the universe!

Dr A.R. Bernard is one of the greatest preachers I have ever heard in my life!Only Pastor Ulf and Pastor Kong is better to me.XD He signed my book"Happiness is" even!Though i didnt get to talk to him or shake his hand.He ministering with the God-given annointing is already GOOD enough!

Transition is a very hard time to go through.With the final year exams coming,the expection to rise up and maintain there during this time is super tough.BUT i pray,in Jesus name,No weapon against me shall prosper! For You are the Way,the Truth and the Life! YAY!

Happy post=)

Friday, August 11, 2006

youth revival+national day.


This Thursday was the Youth Revival Meeting.
Me and Stuart was playing for Praise and Worship.
Thou his Maton died,
GOD still entered in a great way.
with all the technical difficulties.
We still managed to have a great time!

National Day

Singapore is 41 this year!!
I saw a small portion of fireworks on friday at the Esplanade.
Even if it was small,
it was good to see hundreds on people there,
being patriotic and all.haha

Sunday, August 06, 2006



Solid stuff from the CCC band and Don Moen. The CCC band really let the whole of Singapore's churchs into a powerful time of praise and worship.Don Moen fitted the older more conservative generation.

Queuing is a menice at the Indoor Stadium man!!!so many people,security and regulations to follow.BUT thanks to certain people!(thank you!!!)we had very good seats whenever i was there=)

EXCITED till the state of insomia.The expentancy to play for the revival meeting is super BIG and kan chiong.Wonder how it will be on stage.

This is the way i will learn how to do things though.Once done the second time will be easier.And the following would be even easier!!!

Might be playing Electric guitar though.Have to learn it soon.The CPX700 is a nice guitar by Yamaha.It is just nice for me.Action,size,everything is just nice.800 dollars seems reasonable for an almost custom made guitar!


Sunday, July 30, 2006

Your Personality Style Description: calvin is an optimistic individual. He is the type of person who loves exploring new places or things and a wide variety of experiences. He tends to display a natural charisma that draws others to his charm. calvin is a very encouraging person; others are drawn to him because they find him inspirational.

A loyal friend, calvin is patient and caring when attending to the needs of others. He is usually an even-paced individual who thrives in a peaceful, harmonious environment. He tends to be quite predictable, sticking with proven, reliable methods of dealing with situations rather than taking chances with a new, unproven approach.

Neat and orderly, others usually see calvin as practical. He needs adequate information to make decisions, and he will consider the pros and cons. He may be sensitive to criticism, and will tend to internalize his emotions. calvin likes to clarify expectations before undertaking new projects, and he will follow a logical process to gain successful results.

Because he cares about how others feel, calvin may feel uncomfortable making decisions that strongly affect others. He typically encourages others to be involved in the decision making process and prefers to work in a team role. Others tend to see calvin as agreeable and humble.


My Biblical Personality Style:

Inspirational & Intuitive: As an "I" style, your personality is similar to Biblical heroes like the Apostle Peter, Barnabas, Abigail and Miriam. All of these people had charisma; and with their ability to encourage and inspire others, they were popular people to be around. Peter was the natural spokesperson for the twelve apostles, Abigail went and spoke to David on behalf of her foolish husband Nabal and inspired David to take the high road in a bad situation.

Personal growth areas for the high "I" style include gaining a sense of balance in all they do since they tend to always see the positive side of things and sometimes underestimate the difficulties that lie ahead. Peter, who proclaimed he would never deny Christ, had no idea of the events that would cause him to lose his confidence, deny knowing Christ, and then feel rejected. Yet Peter regained his passion and purpose and fifty days later stood in front of thousands and boldly told of all the things that had happened. Peter quickly was regarded as one of the early church leaders, and was a great evangelist and gospel writer.


Some say delieverance is not for the now.I say that is crap.because i just experienceed it so strongly and tangibly that it has to be real and for us TODAY.

I went to both services and both ministry sessions during this weekend with Pastor Mike Connell.

I can tell you it was the one best meeting i have ever attended since i dunno when!!!!!I felt manifestation even during the preaching...i felt churning within me and i didnt know wat it was.

When I went up...i already felt light-feeted?.really just a little force would have just hit me down.I could barely stand straight when i was in the prayer line.

THEN it came.The Holy Spirit and Jesus the Deliverer came RIGHT INTO MY BODY AND SOUL,driving all the "things" in me out.Coughing and me feeling a strong heat indicated it was no longer I.But CHRIST who lives in me.

After this great experience....i have know learnt I must release forgiveness...if not the demons will come back and proclaim they have a right to be in me.

I have learnt to forgive from the bottom of my heart and i will not be hurt by this matter again.


Wednesday, July 26, 2006


OH!!!!!!!!!i have the mp3 of song written by ME and RICO.

Please kindly ask around for the mp3 and circulate haha

Contact me at calvin_phua@hotmail.com for the songs!

Thank you.

Monday, July 24, 2006


A Sermon From A Teacher

Havent blogged in a long time

Mr Phoon from our school...yes! that one.

He was talking to me and two other latecomers.It was like a sermon...though he said it was not...

Freedom and Responsibility
F for freedom and R for responsibility.

F and R are on the see-saw of life...when we are young...F is small and R is also small.We only have the R to study as students.As we grow older...our parents want us to live on our own two feet.

Growing up...we want the F to be as big as possible.but with the more F you have...the more R u take up.If F grows bigger...There is much more R to take...

However remember all things must be balanced and if F is big...R should be big to counter the weight of F.Responsibility shows how much u mature and that will gain you more F from parents and other authority figures.

How simple it may be.But it struck a string in my heart...

With all these things happening now....my parents and all are overseas....me and my sister have took up a great responsibilty and have to take care of the house...finances,food and any other stuff...stress and pressure have come upon my once "study only" life.

Look like i have to take it up upon myself to go through this time.With God by my side and the Holy Spirit within me....there is nothing that is too big for Him.

Cant wait for another time of just pressing into God's presence...as i learn how to really worship God...that will bring upon the Presence of God when i play the guitar.Strengthening my Spirit-man will make me grow STRONGER and I will press unto that higher call!!!

That was long huh=)

Friday, July 21, 2006


Glorious is my King!!!

I have been blessed ever since I have been committed to the Will of God.Commitment is the key to showing your maturity and determination to continue on an interest or a task i've been given.

God is SO GREAT!All my guitars are given to me by my father's friends and my uncle=)I believe they did not want to give me...but God moved them to give me their guitars...haha...even though they are worth 1k or more!(morris)

My faith level has increased during these 3 to 4 weeks since i came back to Singapore...I have learnt to focus on the promises and not on the disappointments.As I go down further into a life with Christ....I believe the Holy Spirit will instill more of Himself in me!!!

I have been writing another song now...with myself this time...ive thought of all thats happen...and well even in times of need we still have to praise God!There will be a preview of the song soon.When i get it done=)

I am going to go for my own cell group meeting now.Its gonna be POWER today!!!!!
See you readers soon!

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Divine Appointment

Never in my life has such a greater cause opened my eyes...

God is my Abba father and no one can stop my from getting nearer to Him!

I have SOMETHING extra that not anyone has...the FREEDOM

I will be like a daniel!strong start AND finish!!!

I will not fast-forward anything except growth in God

Everything is placed by God and it is appointed for me=)

Sunday, July 16, 2006

Vent...now Bent

Anger,fatigue and disappointment is overcome by just one line.

He is FAITHFUL when i am faithless!!!!

Do not ever step over my boundaries.You will know when u do when i cut you off my circle of friends and nver talk to you.

Hypocrites SUCK.

that felt Good....anyway....i claimed my healing when Pastor Che Ahn was the speaker and ministered to the congregation...he stirred up the faith i had to receive my healing!

The toe will get better with time to come...God has breathed His breath on it!

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Stress?Long time no see...

Ever wondered whether Phua would break down?!


i am super tired...tired of living just the normal life...its just dry and unsatisfying...wats a life without surprises and pleasant treats...life may not be a bed of roses...at least make it a bed of tulips or something...have something pleasant to talk about...if not dun talk to me!

Really need a break...never in my life ive ever been so tired and dry...

Lord fill my Cup and make me whole!
Take my life and make it BOLD!

off to charge my batt with GOD!WHOOSH!!!!!!

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

How Now?

i was searching through my stuff and i found an mp3 player!my dad must have changed the old spoilt one for it=)well its 4 gb...and with my songs gone ill have to ask everybody for songs!


These words went through my mind as i didnt go to school today...just because i overslept.Had the time..

Was quite down and this song really encouraged me...now ya...just gonna live happier and grow stronger!I know my God WILL pull me through=)

Sunday, July 09, 2006

New song!!!!!

this song is composed by me and rico....copyright laws apply=)

Carry On_

When all around me Crumbles,
Even when I Stumble.
You were there.
and you gave me the strength
the strength to soar

Chorus :
You're my strength when all else fails,
you were there to pick me up.
and i carry on.
because of you.

When all around me Crumbles,
Even when I Stumble.
You were there.
and you gave me the strength
the strength to soar


Bridge :
and I'll sing,
for all youve done
i'll sing


because of you
because of you
because of you

I carry on...

Send Your Power Today

iq,eq,pq...and lastly RQ...

i think this message is just the Word E412 and N353 needs...SOME people actually...the message really meant something to them...but why were they not there to hear it!!!

Multiplication is just another step in life...a stumbling stone will be a stepping stone if we adorn the right attitude and be positive...always look on the bright side of things...anyway most of us are from the same school...and the rest still exist...still can call or sms...growth often makes you leave something behind...make you hurt...after the hurt you are another level higher!He will never leave you nor forsake you

They should have been there!the message was so suitable...But its ok...ill just see them "die"...they will crawl back to the Lord!

Still the Lord will bring us together according to His Will!One day...

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

sucks man...3st sucks

hypocritical...two faced!ARGH! man....aiyo i cant stand it u know...irritating people...cant stand them anymore....ANYWAY

school is getting boring..and my class sucks...cant get happy even if i wanted to...i just cant really be around my classmates...well almost all of them...i think i really should have gone to other classes man...so many of them la!even churched...same church somemore...aiyo...just cant stand...i know they try but its not enuff...

when time calls for me to blog...ill blog again

Saturday, July 01, 2006


well its one week in school...not a very good start la..went back to typical classes...so boring...the new teachers...aiyo...i think i gave a bad impression and the teacher also made a bad one on me

Day to day same schooling days...kinda sucks man...super super super tired after having training since the last time i had training was 3-4 months ago..stupid broken toe...

i cant even bother blogging la...wasting time....ill rather live my life

Sunday, June 25, 2006

long time man...

its really been a long time ive been to service!3 weeks in fact...but after coming back from england i finally went to service...my goodness i forgot how good pastor kong's preaching was man!he preached a storm...and brother poh,sidney,brother david etc. solid la! they even started praise with my favourite song lol...

leaving singapore has made me realise the things i have in singapore and its like nicotine redrawal la...cant do without it=)thanks to all the guys who welcome me back and made me feel ever closer to this family of mine...

OH no! haha i gained weight la...everybody thinks i lost weight...i gained like 5-6 kg...eeee i must lose again...now my diet is cereals ok! and LOW fat milk haha...i will lose untill 55 then i will start my old diet=)

Yesterday when we celebrated val's birthday....wow i saw her face when all the presents were given haha...super happy lor...but i dun think its the presents...its the thought that counts..presents just represent that thought we have=)but of course christian, rico and my present was the best lol...first time i really saw a present of this calibre..solid leh...haha

hmm...i got nothing more to blog about...just reminding all that i love to play winning eleven on xbox...and whoever has a spare,not playing or extra disc please please lend me!haha original only thanks!ill write about other stuff soon!!

Thursday, June 22, 2006

wow...stongehedge=)one of the many place i went la...i think it was kinda too tourist oriented...sell all the rubbish...the stones still nice though...er...stonehedge is over 3 thousands old or something i think...on the right is durdle door...its super nice for some rocks...again...the small pebble beach there is kinda nice too=)

whao!crazy horse la...nver see chinese people before ar...kool man haha i was at the buckingham palace then walked over to where the queens guards were...near ten downing street where tony blair lives!kool lol

haha went to the big ben as well...ignore the big brown spots on my face...they are scars from cold sores...and they hurt!

there are many more pictures...but of course i am too lazy cause got over 300...if u really wanna see then tell me=)

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

im back!

i have spent over 100 pounds on watever i bought in a 3 week trip!all this stuff will be worn through now till sometime in july.i bought 3 pair of shoes.4 shirts.2 jackets.a tie.lots more la haha.thank goodness not my cash haha.

all this stuff was paid for by my mother cause some smart forgot to change money before going overseas.all due to smart time management and almost missing the check in.

on the 12 hour plane ride home...all in my mind was getting off and being on ngaporean land!but not too bad...the pilot took a different flight plan and it only took 10 hours=)it was super hot and no individual screens.thousands practially wasted on crap service too.

but i should not complain..im back in singapore!looking forward to enjoy the last week of the holidays and maybe to enjoy the school term.i will upload the pics as soon as i get the pics from my sister and as soon as i learn how to.XD

nowadays world cups are getting really boring.beside the odd great goal...many matches have early goals or late goals.early goals make you excited to start with then as the game gets boring when no goal or action happens...you wanna wait for more...waste time lor!late goal worse...make you wait and wait until soon turn off the match expecting no goals.tml morning paper said 1 nil or 2 nil.haiz.

its 213 am and the sweden englandis approaching.i forgot to wear my england shirt la!but i support spain.the england shirt is just cheap=)and got my favourite player lampard's name.

6 to 6 fast..12 hours seems ok and great for my spirit man i think..well i am used to it and ya i will just type more rubbish to extend this..im am just really waiting for the match to start..lalala...boring..i realised there is msn 8 beta...should get it soon..er..oh ya i am saving up for a new guitar and donations would be galdy received.just abit of saving will allow to buy a maestro.

jack johnson is mad.his songs are just mad to play...just a small part can take me n hour to learn haha..but i have so far learnt two songs but only parts of it..um...sitting waiting wishing and upside down too.its fun to play his songs la...so folky and childy..you can imagine cartoons next to you just like in the video.

Friday, June 16, 2006

Is blogging for me?

alright!ive got this blog thing on the right track...thanks to help from melissa...thank you...well i think mostly this blog will be mainly based on the crap and events that happen in my lame life....to start off i am in england...um....gloucester to be exact.its some boring old countryside with a good town centre thats all.The highlight of my 3 week holiday is so far my ONE day trip to london!haha i went to funny places...like harrods,piccadilly circus,trafalgar square e.t.c. i almost went to arsenal station to visit highbury for the last time.time constrains prevented me yet again.

shopping in swindon was also a highlight day despite being bored.swindon is a small village..best known for 1 thing...the mega designer brand mall...where all the stuff is super cheap when there are offers.its like a mad mall....it had nike,ralph lauren,levis and some other great stalls la...of course i bought some stuff...paid by my mother lol because someone forgot to change money for a holidayXO i got pairs of nike shoes,one a crap total 90 fully red but the other is a nike air tempo blue in colour and i think it is 4x2 studs.i almost got a ralph lauren shirt but its was £50...killer price..

There are many things that are new in my life=)so much of clothes and shoes and even a jacket.the best so far is this new guitar my dad bought me before going off to dubai for his work.i mean i was just asking off hand la..he really got me one..though i thought england was boring after going sight seeing wasnt that fun...the shopping was its only saving grace.

overall london is 7/10
7 because it has qutie good sight to see in london and its also caters to others who enjoy the rural lifestyle.7 because of the distance and the length of the flight.even in england itself you have to drive super far lor.this blog came up well...when my trip was due to end.no matter...singapore can also be fun...i will enjoy another 14 hour flight to singapore again this sunday.the worse is that in thai airways...the stewardesses and stewards and in traditional costumes and speak with that thai accent which will blow your mind after a few hours.

i leave with this note."england sucks if your not in london"


i just posted this thingy for the first time!woo!LOL